These nights again

Why humans are so weak?
Why humans are created to be so complicated, especially their mind?
I hate when your for example arguing with someone and you couldn't figure out anything good to say. And after the fight when you sit back and repeat all and think "I should say this thing and that."
After all I don't end up fights like with my friends or like that.
I just hope that I could say all the things what I've been thinking now to him whiteout starting to cry.
I guess it has left so deeb scars that it hurts when you talk about it , and it can't never repair again.

I've been feeling so frustrated, anguished , unaccomplished and numb.
Feeling that everything what I've done will disappear right after.
So frustrated that a little wrong voice at the wrong time drives me around the bend!
Emotional,  even writing this takes all the power what I have enymore.

deeb thoughts

Olen nuori .Olen päättäväinen
En ole tyhmä ,osaan päätellä.
Osaan elää elämääni niin kuin tahdon.
En ole kapinallinen teini. Olen ihminen.
Minulla on tunteet. Minulla on voima.
En ole avuton. En ole passattu.
Olen pohjalla. Olen korkealla tähdissä.
Minulla on valta päättää itse miten elän elämääni.

I'm young. I am determined.
I'm not stupid, I can conclude
.I can live my life as I want to.
I'm not a rebellious teen. I am a human being
.I have feelings. I have the power.
I'm not helpless. I'm not spoilt.
I'm on the bottom. I'm high on the stars.
I have the power to decide for myself how to live my life.